Ever feel like you never have enough time to sit down or even take a 5 minute nap? Being a parent is a tough job, but being a Mother is even harder. We as women have the motherly instinct to look after our children like hawks look after their prey. To not lose track of every second of where your child is at, every moment of their day. This is what we live for.
I, myself have two children. A 9 year old daughter and a 7 year old daughter. Ever since the day they were born I looked after their every move. As a mother you constantly worry, and wonder if your child will be ok and how they will grow up. We always want what is best for them and strive to offer the best no matter what. Even though there are books that you think will prepare you a little to be a parent, living as one from day to day is the only way to grow as one.
I had an incodent when my oldest daughter was an infant. I had just brought her home from the hospital and being a brand new mother, I placed her in her crib to sleep, not knowing it was the wrong way. When i went to get a quick drink, I checked on her before I went to bed and she was choking. I instantly went into panic mode, grabbed her and called 911. Ever since that first horrible experience, I would sleep with her right at my side while she was sleeping and I would lay my hand on her stomach to feel every breath she would take. It seemed like every second after that I would look upon her even during the day to make sure she was alright.
Of coarse it is impossible to look after a child every second of the day. A kid will be a kid and they will get hurt at some point in thier lives. But I tried as hard as I could to make sure that It would never happen.
The first few years of her life I would never let her out of my sight, while she played, ate, and slept. I over did my motherly nature and did not just let her be a kid. When she would fall, I would bath her right away so she was not dirty, I know I babied her alot. But as a mother, we hurt if our children get hurt. I just wanted to avoid the pain but in fact I was just causing myself way too much stress and anxioty worrying every second of every day of my daughter's life.
As she grew older, yes she got hurt and I did hurt for her to see her big alligator tears or to see her bleed. But she grew up a very happy little girl even after getting hurt. I drifted back on being a hawk and started just to be there when she needed me the most.
After my second daughter was born I had gained motherly experience and was able to learn and mature at being a mom. School functions, activities, homework, their friends, and now, attitudes; were coming into play. This all comes with the role of being a mother, just being there with them, to watch them grow and teach them right from wrong, good from bad and to understand them when they come to you for advice or just for you to listen.
Yes, it has been the toughest job in my life. It has good days and bad. I never have time for me to get my hair done, nails done, or even to take a 5 minute nap. But, for me, I believe that being a Mother is the greatest job a women could ever have.
To know that you are their shoulder to cry on, their helper with homework, help make them look and feel pretty, to be able to buy them things they want and see the biggest smiles on thier faces, and so much more, makes you feel like everything you do without having "You" time, is all worth being a MoM.
My girls with a few of their cousins 2008
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